JaNina B.

How many of you would take their lover back after they cheated on you for two years? How many of you would stay with that same lover after you took them back and they had a side piece? God took me back.   I was caught in a cycle. I would date someone for a few years, go back to God and then leave God to date someone else. That’s pretty messed up, but he took me back. Before one of my exes, I had this ring. Before I even knew what a promise ring was, I wore it and said that I was married to God. I cheated on him and then left him. Guess what, I lost my ring. I didn’t know where it was and didn’t even think about it. I was with my ex for two years before God came back to claim me as his own. I went back to God, but I had a side piece. I didn’t leave my ex alone. I honestly lost the desire to do a lot of things I used to do. No sex, no inappropriate touching, but I didn’t leave dude alone. I didn’t give my full self to God, but guess what, He didn’t leave me. I d...

The story of Joseph is so awesome. This morning God dealt with me about character advancement. In order for Joseph to get to the high place that God was placing him in, he had to learn a few things. He had to learn love, loyalty, faith, relationship, vision, and forgiveness. Joseph learned love from his brothers. Even though Joseph was a favorite, he experienced hate in his own house hold. I can just imagine the mean things that he heard his brothers say about him or the way that he felt when he was left out of things they were doing. Joseph had to learn how to love the ones that were closet to him in order to love other people. When you can love a family member that has hurt you, you can love anybody. Joseph needed that love so that he wouldn’t grow bitter in the 13 years that God had in him Egypt. He also needed that love in order to effectively serve the people that God was sending him to. I also believe that he compassion for people that were in a bad situation. Now, Joseph was...

I am 27 years old, so it is an odd time for me to decide that I want to give my all to Christ. I mean my ALL! Not just my Sundays or my times my prayer, but my whole life, relationships, finances. Ok, God has to work with me on the finances part, but I want him to have all of me. After all it’s his money and I am bought with a price. Do not be bitter in your singleness. It’s cute to have a boo and everything, but it’s beautiful when you have the resources to pick the right boo. My goal in dedicating everything to God is just to have a closer walk with him. I wanna do everything with God. I wanna walk in the park, have dinner and late night talks with Jesus. In a relationship we get all wrapped up in our mate and do these things so why not do them with Jesus. I am at a place at seeing me. God is showing me that I am not the best the friends. So my desire and my prayer is to be a great friend. I don’t want anything from anybody; I just want to give of myself in Jesus name, weather ...

Stop questing God about what is taking him so long to bless you and stop comparing you’re “come up” to how the people of the world are operating.   God reigns on the just as well as the unjust (Matthew 5:45). Your” hard time” is meant to glorify your father in heaven! Let them look down on you, let them talk about you because guess what, God has some C4 (dunamis power, dynamite) ready that he is about to release on your behalf. You will walk in your destiny, but it will be in God’s timing. God is going to use you in the position that he will himself create for you, but first he has to train you to perform well on the Job. You have to be led by the ultimate Shepard so that he can teach you to have the gentleness, kindness, love and patience that you will need to have for the place that he is sending you. The money and the things will come, but right now you need to know how to sit at your father’s feet and worship. You are not mature enough for all the blessings that God has lined...

  Should Christians be so completive against one another? I mean God loves every single one of us and has given each of us gifts that we can use for his glory, so why are we so completive? It is important to remember that each of us has strengths and weakness and it is also important to remember that God did not only anoint you to perform in your area ministry. If you sing, you are not the only one that God gave that talent to; If you preach, you are not the only one that God gave that gift to; if your write, guess what, you are not the only one that has that talent either. Don’t allow any “beef”, jealousy, or competiveness get in the way of what God is trying to do in your life and in the lives of others. If you’re not the best at something, that does not mean that you should be jealous of someone that is. Ask yourself, if you work hard at honing your craft, or if that is the gift that God is wanting you to use at this time. Ask God what your area of ministry is and seek h...

  I used to be just like you. I stayed offended about something. I was offended because someone said something the wrong way, or I was offended because I felt excluded from certain groups, I was even offended by the bond that certain people had my church. I spent a lot of time crying, being sad, and allowing jealousy to drive my decisions and emotions up a wall. I still battle this demon in many areas of my life. Yes, I called being offended a demon. It is a demon just like any other demon. It can ruin your life and relationships. I almost allowed the fact that I was offended cause me to leave my church.   The crazy thing about all of this is that, the people that were “offending” me, had no idea that I was harboring the anger, jealousy, and offenses that I was. Sometimes we have to step back and ask ourselves if it is us that needs to reevaluate the way that we are seeing things. The devil can use these false feelings to make you miss out on your blessing. You could be...

I used to spend so much time regretting the past. I regretted the things that I did, the people that I let in my life and the people that I hurt. If I have ever hurt any of you I am truly sorry. It is so easy to hold on to things that seem simple to one person but can be life altering to another. I had to learn to forgive. I am still learning to forgive. As much as I wish I could change certain events in life they made me who I am. Strangely enough, every time my heart was broken it drew me closer to God. This is important because during these times I learned about who he was. I did not understand it then and I even back slide but I understand now. God was always there to dry every tear and heal every heart break. I took him for granted on many occasions but that set up has done nothing but make me cling to him more now. I do not always get it right, but I never want to go back to places that he has brought me from. You began to understand how far he has brought you when you truly le...

While Jesus was going about doing the work of the father, the disciples urged him to eat; Jesus’ reply was “I have food that you know not of”. What do you consider to be your bread of life? Who and what are you trusting in? Can it be said about you that you are going about your father’s business. What are you consuming today child of God? Is it anger? Disappointment? Push your plate away and consume the food that the father has prepared for you to eat! Spending time with the father will give you all the nourishment that you need to go on with day. Stop drowning your troubles in food and wine. Again I ask, what are you consuming today? Is the lust of the flesh? Or the things you watch on TV? It is time to check your diet child of God! Will you be found full and gluttonous from the world or will you be found full from the word of God? What will your testimony be? Recommended Reading John 4: 27-38  

Every day I am learning that I am not my own. In spiritual warfare you cannot do the things that you used to do, say the things that you used to say, watch the things that you used to watch, or even hang around the people that you used to hang around. In many ways I am stubborn in all theses things and I have to be honest and say that I pay the price mentally for it. As a person who was a day dreamer and fantasizer before I gave my life to Christ, this has been a true battle area for me. I am a thinker, I have always been a thinker, but now God is using my mind for his purposes. He inspires me and gives me things to write down. Lately I have been a very negative thinker. I have been depressed, resenting my place in my life, and finding every horrible fault in the way that I feel I am being treated. In the words of Joyce Myer, I have to think about what I am thinking about. Ya’ll, pride can be a hard demon to slay. Many times we feel entitled and God wants us to drop the attitude an...

Life is so crazy. I never saw myself where I am now. I never imagined that I would work at a children’s store or be a care giver. My one dream was to be a doctor. As a small child that’s all I ever told people I wanted to be. I even started my college career off in pre-med, but pretty soon, after many failing grades, that dream faded. God had different plans for my life. Plans I can’t say I 100% agreed with. I didn’t see myself getting saved at the time that I did. I didn’t see myself without a few ex-boyfriends that I had, but God had a different plan. I now understand that everything happens for a reason and that where I am in my life is not a mistake. God is growing me up and teaching me how to treat people. My desire is to hear with God’s ears, speak with God’s words and have God’s heart. I thank God for every failure. Every failed class, every failed friendship, and every failed relationship. The best place to be is in his will. God desires to move people out of your life...

As adults we often forget how to be children. We do what we want to do and forget how to listen. What does it mean to you when God says to come to him as a little child? Does that mean just listening or just being obedient?   NEWS FLASH! You cannot do one without the other. You have to listen so that you can receive the instructions you need to be obedient.   How can you really know that you’re being obedient if you don’t listen? Like children we get distracted. We stop to look at all the pretty flowers and trees when God is telling us to not touch anything and to focus.   Why do you despise correction? God only wants to see you prosper and succeed.   God is merely trying to instill the same values in you that you attempt to instill in your children. Your children get upset with you when you punish them, but they forgive you. Why do you continue to stay upset with God when something does not go your way?   Verses to think about: "B...

    What is hindering your progress in the Lord? Is it your dreams, your relationships, your job or your bad attitude? NEWSFALSH: YOU HAVE TO START LETTING SOMETHINGS GO! Yes, it can be hard. Yes, it can hurt, but God is trying to move you out of the circles that you’re used to and place God minded people around you. Heed the voice of God people! You say that God does not care and you say that he doesn’t talk to you, but are you even trying to hear him? Turn your world down and listen to the voice of the Lord. He is always speaking, but you are not allows listening. God does not come second place to the idols that you have set up in your life. You will rearrange your schedule to go to the club or out on a date, but you will not do the same to go to HIS house and worship HIM. That is backwards and God is not pleased. You have all kinds of pictures in your our house of Jesus but you have premarital sex right in front of it. REMOVE THE IDOLES SO THAT GOD ...

Today as I was doing my hair I started to talk to God. Many times I feel lonely and confused which always leads me to the front of the prayer line at church. In a way this is a crutch for me and I am tired of it. There is nothing wrong with having other people pray for you, but it’s time that I start praying for myself. I want my own relationship with God. I do not want to kick myself on judgment day when God shows me everything that he desired for me to do in this world, but I didn’t because of ungodly attachments. We were created by and in the image of God so why is it so hard to let Tyron and them go? God is our ultimate attachment. We were created to be attached to him, he is our first love. When God created Adam, God was the first person he saw and spoke to. There was no Eve, no mamma, daddy or worldly pleasure. Why is it so easy to leave God, but we have a mental break down when it is time to release the people from our past (or present)? The attachment theory is based in...

If God were to tell you to cut off all of your friends, church family and people you love would you be able to do it? The time of silencing is a very important one as a Christian. It is a time of getting out of yourself and being able to hear the voice of God. As a Christian living in this world, you have to know who you are and you have to know whose you are. In order to find that out you have to tell the world around you to shut up. When you cut people off, it does not mean that you don’t love or care for them. It could mean that it is time for you to move on with your life, it could also mean that that person is a hindrance to your relationship with God. We have to learn how to listen to the voice of God even when it hurts. It hurts us to let people that we love or have known for a long time go, but what is more important to you, your relationship with them or your relationship with God? You say you love God, so what are you willing to release in your life so that you can have/s...

Do not allow another hour, minute or second go by that you have not allowed God to come into your heart and change your life. It is time out for the fake stuff yall! Ya, you go to church, but you also know that your heart isn’t right. A right heart yields to God and abhors evil. A right heart says Lord have your way with me. A right heart knows that having a church home, merly going to church, and paying tithes is not enough to get you into heaven. Everybody wants the real, I’m gone give it to. If you died today and have not accepted Jesus as your lord and savior, you are not going to heaven. Do not fool your selves by believing that everybody that you know that has died went to heaven. you know what it means to live right. Kick that negro out, put the weed down, no more pre-marital sex, stop cursing and getting drunk! God loves you so much that he gave his only begotten son for you! Why don’t you give your life to him? Grandmamma and momma can pray for you, but you are the one tha...

Young Woman. Young Man. This is not your lot in life. Don’t you understand how much God loves you? It does not please God to see you suffer. In fact it hurts him. God hates to see you merely “survive”. Young lady, God did not call you to see your body or be addicted to drugs. God does not want you to live in poverty. You are call to prophesy. God is saying Release everything to me today. Young man selling drugs is not your calling. You are called to greatness. I pray protection over your life in Jesus name. Whoever you are please go to church tomorrow. God is calling you and he is waiting.  

Diamonds are treasured around the world, so treasured that people produce fakes just to meet the demand of the masses that desire them. You are just as treasured. Don’t allow the world around you to make you into a fake. Becoming purified comes along with tests and trails. Purified water is filtered to get all of the contaminates out. I mean really, who wants dirty water? Child of God you are a light that God has sent to shine in dim places. You are a well holding his life changing, life giving water and you are as valuable to him as a diamond that has been created under pressure. Don’t you see that God is filtering you? There are no lies in God so he has to remove all the fakeness, the phoniness and the containments out of you. The testing of your faith produces patience. You may not be where you want to be but God is using you where you are. He is growing you up to be who he has called you to be. Desire to be a life producing tree instead of a dead stump. Pray for divine gu...

      God has to tear down who you think you are in order to build up who you are in him. The twin towers were beautiful. They were tall and something to be admired around the world.   You are like the twin towers and you have to be destroyed. Self-perceptions can be so large. We can either be arrogant and haughty or we can be lowly and depressed. God does not desire for you to be insecure but he also does not desire for you to think that you can do anything without him. Ground zero is a point of destruction. There is a lot of sadness associated with destruction; there is also a lot of smoke, damage and death. Do not desire to be restored to your former glory Child of God. God is doing a new thing. You are under construction. A lot of plans are taking place in your life and there is a lot going on that you are not aware of. Submit to the process. Submit to God as your true resting place and not just a pet stop for when you get tired of trying to handle lif...

  You are the dirt, God is the contractor. You used to be a house but God had to tear down the property and evict the previous owners. You won’t stay dirt forever though. God desires to do something new with you and in order for him to do that, he had to tear you down. You are a mansion not a shack! God sees so much potential in what the world saw so little value in, so the old friends (furniture) relationships (walls) and circumstances had to go. You are at ground zero and there is a lot of drilling taking place in your life. God is drilling up that old foundation, dirt and concrete so that you can now be fertile ground, good soil fit for producing fruit. Every heart ach, every broken promise, every disappointment and every hurtful word now has a purpose. God is saying to you, although you may sow in weeping, you will reap with shouts of joy (psalm 126:5). God is creating a new foundation for you. He is sending builders to motivate and sculpt you to how he wants you to ...

The destruction of your plans allows God to give you a greater anointing and build up your character to how He wants it to be. Israel has endured destruction many times on their road to greatness. God had to tear them down in order to get rid of all the sin and disobedience that they were subjecting themselves to. What you are going through is meant for your good child of God. God is trying to burn up everything in your life that is unlike him. Submit to the process. God is humbling you. As a chosen vessel of the most high God, you cannot act like the world around you. Their god is not your God. Stop prostituting yourself in every club to fit in with the devil's kingdom. What is your character like child of God? Can you handle the success that God wants to give you? God is not trying to punish you Child of God. He is trying to build you up. God is your strong and mighty tower, lean on Him. He is the guard at your city's gates. Those friends, that man/woman in your life have ...

Many times I have been to churches and I have experienced no love. Now, you may wonder what I mean by this. I’m not saying that God should not be the focus and I’m definitely not saying that we should go to church for people or to play the sympathy card. I’m merely asking where is the love of Christ in church? I did not experience the love of God through “church people” until I got to my current church (I got so tired of people hugging me, lol). A lot of times we see people sitting right next to us and we don’t even bother to ask them how their day is going. God can do all things, but He uses us also. You smiling or asking someone how they are doing can brighten their whole year up. The world can be so cold and unforgiving. No one should have to come to the Lord's house and experience the same treatment. If you were in a tough place in your life and a stranger told you that God loves you and asks you if you needed prayer, would you look at them crazy? Keep in mind that you’re...

God is calling leaders after his own heart. It is timeout for playing church and time in for living a life holy and devoted to Him. Stop thinking that you are protecting the church by hiding your dirt under the carpet. God’s bride is stained because of filthy living. You are abusing God’s bride and publicly embarrassing her. Your TV shows and your unanointed messages are not giving him glory. Stop staining God’s name with your mess! We are not to be ashamed on our wedding day when we walk down the aisle to Christ, but how can we not be when there are naysayers in the wedding party spilling all of our secrets. The bride should not have secrets church! We are called to be pure and holy. GOD IS COMING BACK FOR A CHURCH WITHOUT SPOT OR BLEMISH! Children should not be mesmerized by your gifts (talents) or your money but by your anointing. The world is mesmerized by the business of church. We talk about God but we are not showing him. True disciples will be recognized by the fruit tha...

King David had such an awareness of God. Many times we pray because we are supposed to. We ask God to get us out of trouble and we even thank Him from time to time, but where is our fear? David was aware of his sin. He was a man after God’s own heart, but he sinned. Where is your heart? David knew how to humble himself and repent. David would cover himself with sackcloth while he cried and fasted. How do you repent and are you really sorry? Yes, God is full of mercy and love but are you aware that He does not have to listen to you? Where is your fear? Society is no longer afraid of God. People get mad when they are told that God is not pleased with something. We know what pleases God but we are more concerned with pleasing ourselves. We allow things on television that God hates. We plant seeds in our children that produce sin. We accept homosexuality (Leviticus 20:13) and premarital sex (1 Thessalonians 4:3; Hebrews13:4). God is not pleased. We are racist and we hate ...

I know that there are some things that should stay private, but my desire is for you to see Christ in my life. I am a work in progress and  I want for you to be in the car with me as I travel along life’s highways. My desire is for my life to be used for Gods glory. There are a lot of things about myself that I pray God will never ask me to revel, but if my past will heal hearts, then so be it. I found myself ashamed about my last blog. It was very personal and I wanted to take it down. I spend a lot of time afraid of judgment, but I pray that people saw how God has moved in my life and on my behalf even in times when I did not deserve it. I have so many stories about things that could have happened to me, but God stopped it. I’m here to share Jesus and I pray that you guys get the courage that you need in order to do the same <3 My challenge for this week: I pray that you guys will join me in this! Write a letter to my past Write a letter to my future Be hon...

I  remember sitting on the bus in middle school and this guy who was older than me told someone that when I started having sex I wouldn’t be able to stop. I was always very quiet, but I thought to myself, how could someone who didn’t know me say such a thing? He was in a sense, speaking over me. I was kinda rebellious as a teen. I lost my virginity at the age of 14 and I had already been on most of the depression medications that were out at that time. I was in love with love and that led to a lot of heart ache. I even left home for a little while when I was 17 because my mother found a pregnancy test in my bathroom. It did not look like I would graduate from college. It did not look like I was a smart young lady. It did not look like I would amount to anything, but God saw different in me. I got saved for the first time when I was16. I did not understand God or how he operated. Even when I was saved? I just knew that I was on my way to hell. During that time, I battled depr...

You are still daddy’s little girl or guy child of God. I’m here to tell you that God loves you and that you are not a mistake. Do not define your heavenly father by man’s standards; when you do, you limit Him. Forget about what that man who you call dad or that woman that you call mom did to you. God has called you to be a sign to the nations as an example of the love that He has. Don’t be surprised, yes I said that He has called you! In all of your mess and in all your bitterness, you are still called. God will give you the words to speak and the strength that you will need for your journey. Do not worry about what “they” say about you, listen to what God says. God says that you are the head and not the tail. God says that you will be above and not beneath. God says that He has plans to prosper and not to harm you, to bring you to an expected end. God says that with Him all things are possible. God says that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. God says that you are his work...

Beautiful girl Wisdom is the key Don’t let the world tell you who you are or who you should be Beautiful girl You’re not defined by the past Shame is not what God called you to manifest Beautiful girl You’re an original A unique work of art You weren’t brought in this world to hurt but to heal hearts Beautiful girl Ask God what he sees He loves you beyond all human understanding   original poem by Janina B.

      You give me your tithes and offering but your heart is far from me. You go to church to show your face but your heart is far from me. You do all these things but where is your heart? God desires pure worship and NOT watered down praise    (Isaiah 1:18-20)   Last night as I was reading the book of Isaiah, the above words are what I received when I got to verses 18-20.   My prayer for you and me today is that we don’t get stuck.   DISCLAMIER: READ ALL OF WHAT IM ABOUT TO WRITE BEFORE YOU JUDGE!!!!!! Don’t get stuck in the motions of church. We all go to church for different reasons. Sometimes   we really do want to be in the presence of God, but we also go just to pay our tithes, to show our face because we have been going and we don’t want people to think that were not saved, or because we are made to go. Ladies and gentlemen there are many more reasons as to why people go to church and it’s sad th...

After the resurrection of Jesus Christ, he made three appearances to His disciples. One of them was at the Sea of Galilee. Simon Peter wanted to go fishing and the other disciples said that they would join him. That night they caught nothing, but upon day break they saw a man standing on the sea shore, but had no idea that it was the Lord. (Is there a situation in your life where God is in the midst but you don’t see him?) Jesus spoke to them concerning how they should catch the fish and that day, they caught such a great number that the net could not be lifted. (Is God giving you instructions on how to succeed and are you listening?) The disciple whom Jesus loved posed an important question about the man at the sea shore. He asked if it was the lord. (Ask yourself this question, in the midst of being unsuccessful and then becoming successful, is it the Lord?) Upon hearing this, Simon Peter jumped into the water and swam to Jesus, the other disciples stayed in the boat and...