I NEED HIM!

I used to spend so much time regretting the past. I regretted the things that I did, the people that I let in my life and the people that I hurt. If I have ever hurt any of you I am truly sorry. It is so easy to hold on to things that seem simple to one person but can be life altering to another. I had to learn to forgive. I am still learning to forgive. As much as I wish I could change certain events in life they made me who I am. Strangely enough, every time my heart was broken it drew me closer to God. This is important because during these times I learned about who he was. I did not understand it then and I even back slide but I understand now. God was always there to dry every tear and heal every heart break. I took him for granted on many occasions but that set up has done nothing but make me cling to him more now. I do not always get it right, but I never want to go back to places that he has brought me from. You began to understand how far he has brought you when you truly leave those things alone. You see a change in your life when you stop talking to certain people and going to certain places. When you are alone with God you learn who he is, you learn how to hear his voice, and you learn the plans that he has for your life. Stop regretting your past and embrace the mess that God has brought you out of. There will be many nights when you feel like “I try but sometimes I fail, now I realize that I need your help, I need you lord”. On many occasions I have gone over my day and seen where I could have done better, but perfect people don’t need God. I am not perfect. I am a hot mess who has a savior that loves me and works on me daily. You have to get to a place where you know that you need him and that you can’t do this life by your - self. The creator of hearts and emotions can certainly straighten out any situation that you are going through. Stop being ashamed! God loves you and the end result is that you win. You are more than a conquer. You have to learn how to stand even when it is hard. I love Job. Job had to stand even though he had lost everything in the world but his life. Job did not even have his health ya’ll. God is such a strong tower. Do not get in the place of being content with just encouraging others. Do not resent God when the fire falls in your own life. Your faith will not turn to ashes! God is a consistent and loving God. You need to get off of your behind and get on your face so that you can talk to your father! God has no intention or desire to embarrass you but his intention is to teach you. Stop being mad and getting an attitude when people correct you! You need him!

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