Real talk: My view of me pt1

I am 27 years old, so it is an odd time for me to decide that I want to give my all to Christ. I mean my ALL! Not just my Sundays or my times my prayer, but my whole life, relationships, finances. Ok, God has to work with me on the finances part, but I want him to have all of me. After all it’s his money and I am bought with a price. Do not be bitter in your singleness. It’s cute to have a boo and everything, but it’s beautiful when you have the resources to pick the right boo. My goal in dedicating everything to God is just to have a closer walk with him. I wanna do everything with God. I wanna walk in the park, have dinner and late night talks with Jesus. In a relationship we get all wrapped up in our mate and do these things so why not do them with Jesus. I am at a place at seeing me. God is showing me that I am not the best the friends. So my desire and my prayer is to be a great friend. I don’t want anything from anybody; I just want to give of myself in Jesus name, weather that is through giving gifts or even encouragement. My Desire is to be used of God and for people to see him instead of me. I have spent a long time caring what other people think of me, but now, as long as my father in heaven is smiling when he looks at me, I’m good.

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