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Will You Marry Me?



I’m not obsessed, but I’ve been thinking about marriage a lot more lately. As a Christian, I’ve learned where I went wrong concerning my standards of dating before I knew Jesus. I have been looking at the profile pages of exes to see if, perhaps, I was missing something. I’m happy to report that I am not. I more so found myself thanking God for what He didn’t allow.
Even though I’m thankful for every failed relationship, I find myself encountering the hurt that still remains as a result of my insecurities. There is so much that I have not let go of. In a way,I’m afraid to let go of the hurt that I am carrying because that vacant spot could potentially attract more pain in its place. I want to trust people, but the fear of them knowing who I intimately am always gets in my way.                
I so badly desire God and everything that He has for me, but the past is a hinderance. I feel as if I should finally forgive those that misused me, but “what if they hurt me” is a thought that often counters what I know I should do.
Before  I began this post, I typed something referencing weddings and saw a cake that almost made me cry. I didn’t become emotional because I longed for a man, but my emotions came from the thought of God asking me if I would marry Him. It seems crazy, but what if God asked us to marry Him? What if he put on a tux, got a ring and seriously proposed? What would that look like? Suppose your yes to God’s will for your life is your official engagement and suppose your wedding is when you begin to walk in the call on your life?
We  get so eager to say yes to a man, but what about saying yes to God?
Lord, today I say yes. Yes I will marry you and become one with everything that you are. Yes, I will bear your name and represent you in honor. Yes, I will love, cherish, and obey you all the days of my life. Lord, I say yes to being your bride and I pray to never take on the identity that I had before I meant you ever again. In Jesus name amen.
Recommended Reading: “Turn, O backsliding children, saith the LORD; for I am married unto you: and I will take you one of a city, and two of a family, and I will bring you to Zion” (Jeremiah 3:14 KJV).

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