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Repairing the Broken Places


I am in a place that I don’t quite understand, but it’s a place that I need to be in. I am in a place in which I feel as if I have to go backwards in order to move forward. Most people say, “I never go backward, I only look ahead”, but in some cases, it is necessary in order for you to survive in the land that God wants to place you in. That land is a place of healthy relationships and emotional stability.
Most of us have a tendency to operate in dysfunction and not even know it. It’s not healthy to want to avoid men and not understand why. It’s not healthy to always be in conflict with other people. It’s not healthy to hate correction. It’s not healthy to hate your family members and to walk in offense. It’s not healthy to avoid intimate relationships with the people that God sends to be builders in the repairing of you.
Let me ask you something; who tainted you? Who touched you the wrong way? Who broke your heart, insulted you, and left you in a spiritually dead place? Who stole your innocence and lied to you? My prayer for you and for me is that you will go back to those places and reclaim what the enemy stole from you.
I desire marriage and healthy relationships, but I also avoid getting close to people. I avoid new friendships out of the fear of being rejected or mishandled. I hide behind the vail of being an introvert. Yes, I do choose to remain silent in many cases, but I am not that quiet. I desire to be included, but I run from allowing people to get so close to me that they can hurt me. What about you? What do you need to be honest about? What man or woman stole something from you?
God would never let you walk into a place that He sends you to, to destroy you. He wants to repair you. He wants to go back to places with you so that you can take your peace back by force. You are covered in the blood of Jesus and you have the legal right to reclaim what was stolen from you. This is not so much about going back to the past to tell people off. There may be people that you need to forgive in the natural, but you need to spiritually and mentally go back to those hurtful moments in order to take back what is yours.
Forgive your father and your mother. Forgive that person who stole your innocence in any way. Forgive that person who mishandled you. Get out of the place of depression and reclaim your identity. Stop being comfortable with loneliness. You are victorious in Jesus and you will move forward, in Jesus name.
Your assignment is to get into the presence of the Lord. In God’s presence there is peace. He will not overwhelm you and He will not bring up thoughts of your past in order to condemn you. God loves you no matter where you come from, what you did, what you said, or how someone else made you feel. You are a child of a King and He accepts you. God is in the business of rebuilding people!
Lord, I believe you when you say that you will never leave nor forsake me. I believe that you love me. Lord, you love me so much, that you want to see me be free. Lord, I thank you for being gentle with me. I thank you for reminding me that I am yours and you are mine. I thank you for the blood of Jesus that renews, restores, and rebuilds. In the name of Jesus, and through His blood, I want everything back that was taken from me. I want my purity and I want my peace back. I want my joy and I want my innocence back. I want my money, my ability to trust, and my ability to love with an untainted heart back. I repent for my sins and I pray that every door that the enemy has used to gain access into my life is closed right now in the name of Jesus. I forgive everyone who has hurt me, used me, stolen from me, talked about me, and doubted me. I forgive the people who mishandled me in my youth. I forgive them by name Lord. My dad, my mom, my teachers, my co-workers, my ex -friends, and my ex-boyfriends. Lord, I release them and I speak the blessings of the Lord over their lives. Thank you for a new day Jesus! These things I pray in Your name, Amen.
Recommended Reading: The Samaritan Woman; John 4:4-26
The Samaritan woman was a broken woman who was in a state of functioning. We don’t know who her family was or how she was raised. We meet her as a woman who was trying to hide. She was hiding from the opinions of people, but she could not hide from Jesus. Jesus didn’t come to condemn her; He came to set her free. The Samaritan woman was someone who may have had a whole in heart. She may have just got done crying or saying negative things about herself. This woman was in need of a savior and she meant Him at the right time in her life. That intersection with Jesus changed her life forever. She was a woman who walked differently from that day forward. She no longer had to hide because Jesus had rebuilt and rebranded her.

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