JaNina B.

Today as I was doing my hair I started to talk to God. Many times I feel lonely and confused which always leads me to the front of the prayer line at church. In a way this is a crutch for me and I am tired of it. There is nothing wrong with having other people pray for you, but it’s time that I start praying for myself. I want my own relationship with God. I do not want to kick myself on judgment day when God shows me everything that he desired for me to do in this world, but I didn’t because of ungodly attachments. We were created by and in the image of God so why is it so hard to let Tyron and them go? God is our ultimate attachment. We were created to be attached to him, he is our first love. When God created Adam, God was the first person he saw and spoke to. There was no Eve, no mamma, daddy or worldly pleasure. Why is it so easy to leave God, but we have a mental break down when it is time to release the people from our past (or present)? The attachment theory is based in...

If God were to tell you to cut off all of your friends, church family and people you love would you be able to do it? The time of silencing is a very important one as a Christian. It is a time of getting out of yourself and being able to hear the voice of God. As a Christian living in this world, you have to know who you are and you have to know whose you are. In order to find that out you have to tell the world around you to shut up. When you cut people off, it does not mean that you don’t love or care for them. It could mean that it is time for you to move on with your life, it could also mean that that person is a hindrance to your relationship with God. We have to learn how to listen to the voice of God even when it hurts. It hurts us to let people that we love or have known for a long time go, but what is more important to you, your relationship with them or your relationship with God? You say you love God, so what are you willing to release in your life so that you can have/s...

Do not allow another hour, minute or second go by that you have not allowed God to come into your heart and change your life. It is time out for the fake stuff yall! Ya, you go to church, but you also know that your heart isn’t right. A right heart yields to God and abhors evil. A right heart says Lord have your way with me. A right heart knows that having a church home, merly going to church, and paying tithes is not enough to get you into heaven. Everybody wants the real, I’m gone give it to. If you died today and have not accepted Jesus as your lord and savior, you are not going to heaven. Do not fool your selves by believing that everybody that you know that has died went to heaven. you know what it means to live right. Kick that negro out, put the weed down, no more pre-marital sex, stop cursing and getting drunk! God loves you so much that he gave his only begotten son for you! Why don’t you give your life to him? Grandmamma and momma can pray for you, but you are the one tha...

Young Woman. Young Man. This is not your lot in life. Don’t you understand how much God loves you? It does not please God to see you suffer. In fact it hurts him. God hates to see you merely “survive”. Young lady, God did not call you to see your body or be addicted to drugs. God does not want you to live in poverty. You are call to prophesy. God is saying Release everything to me today. Young man selling drugs is not your calling. You are called to greatness. I pray protection over your life in Jesus name. Whoever you are please go to church tomorrow. God is calling you and he is waiting.  

Diamonds are treasured around the world, so treasured that people produce fakes just to meet the demand of the masses that desire them. You are just as treasured. Don’t allow the world around you to make you into a fake. Becoming purified comes along with tests and trails. Purified water is filtered to get all of the contaminates out. I mean really, who wants dirty water? Child of God you are a light that God has sent to shine in dim places. You are a well holding his life changing, life giving water and you are as valuable to him as a diamond that has been created under pressure. Don’t you see that God is filtering you? There are no lies in God so he has to remove all the fakeness, the phoniness and the containments out of you. The testing of your faith produces patience. You may not be where you want to be but God is using you where you are. He is growing you up to be who he has called you to be. Desire to be a life producing tree instead of a dead stump. Pray for divine gu...

      God has to tear down who you think you are in order to build up who you are in him. The twin towers were beautiful. They were tall and something to be admired around the world.   You are like the twin towers and you have to be destroyed. Self-perceptions can be so large. We can either be arrogant and haughty or we can be lowly and depressed. God does not desire for you to be insecure but he also does not desire for you to think that you can do anything without him. Ground zero is a point of destruction. There is a lot of sadness associated with destruction; there is also a lot of smoke, damage and death. Do not desire to be restored to your former glory Child of God. God is doing a new thing. You are under construction. A lot of plans are taking place in your life and there is a lot going on that you are not aware of. Submit to the process. Submit to God as your true resting place and not just a pet stop for when you get tired of trying to handle lif...

  You are the dirt, God is the contractor. You used to be a house but God had to tear down the property and evict the previous owners. You won’t stay dirt forever though. God desires to do something new with you and in order for him to do that, he had to tear you down. You are a mansion not a shack! God sees so much potential in what the world saw so little value in, so the old friends (furniture) relationships (walls) and circumstances had to go. You are at ground zero and there is a lot of drilling taking place in your life. God is drilling up that old foundation, dirt and concrete so that you can now be fertile ground, good soil fit for producing fruit. Every heart ach, every broken promise, every disappointment and every hurtful word now has a purpose. God is saying to you, although you may sow in weeping, you will reap with shouts of joy (psalm 126:5). God is creating a new foundation for you. He is sending builders to motivate and sculpt you to how he wants you to ...

The destruction of your plans allows God to give you a greater anointing and build up your character to how He wants it to be. Israel has endured destruction many times on their road to greatness. God had to tear them down in order to get rid of all the sin and disobedience that they were subjecting themselves to. What you are going through is meant for your good child of God. God is trying to burn up everything in your life that is unlike him. Submit to the process. God is humbling you. As a chosen vessel of the most high God, you cannot act like the world around you. Their god is not your God. Stop prostituting yourself in every club to fit in with the devil's kingdom. What is your character like child of God? Can you handle the success that God wants to give you? God is not trying to punish you Child of God. He is trying to build you up. God is your strong and mighty tower, lean on Him. He is the guard at your city's gates. Those friends, that man/woman in your life have ...

Many times I have been to churches and I have experienced no love. Now, you may wonder what I mean by this. I’m not saying that God should not be the focus and I’m definitely not saying that we should go to church for people or to play the sympathy card. I’m merely asking where is the love of Christ in church? I did not experience the love of God through “church people” until I got to my current church (I got so tired of people hugging me, lol). A lot of times we see people sitting right next to us and we don’t even bother to ask them how their day is going. God can do all things, but He uses us also. You smiling or asking someone how they are doing can brighten their whole year up. The world can be so cold and unforgiving. No one should have to come to the Lord's house and experience the same treatment. If you were in a tough place in your life and a stranger told you that God loves you and asks you if you needed prayer, would you look at them crazy? Keep in mind that you’re...

God is calling leaders after his own heart. It is timeout for playing church and time in for living a life holy and devoted to Him. Stop thinking that you are protecting the church by hiding your dirt under the carpet. God’s bride is stained because of filthy living. You are abusing God’s bride and publicly embarrassing her. Your TV shows and your unanointed messages are not giving him glory. Stop staining God’s name with your mess! We are not to be ashamed on our wedding day when we walk down the aisle to Christ, but how can we not be when there are naysayers in the wedding party spilling all of our secrets. The bride should not have secrets church! We are called to be pure and holy. GOD IS COMING BACK FOR A CHURCH WITHOUT SPOT OR BLEMISH! Children should not be mesmerized by your gifts (talents) or your money but by your anointing. The world is mesmerized by the business of church. We talk about God but we are not showing him. True disciples will be recognized by the fruit tha...

King David had such an awareness of God. Many times we pray because we are supposed to. We ask God to get us out of trouble and we even thank Him from time to time, but where is our fear? David was aware of his sin. He was a man after God’s own heart, but he sinned. Where is your heart? David knew how to humble himself and repent. David would cover himself with sackcloth while he cried and fasted. How do you repent and are you really sorry? Yes, God is full of mercy and love but are you aware that He does not have to listen to you? Where is your fear? Society is no longer afraid of God. People get mad when they are told that God is not pleased with something. We know what pleases God but we are more concerned with pleasing ourselves. We allow things on television that God hates. We plant seeds in our children that produce sin. We accept homosexuality (Leviticus 20:13) and premarital sex (1 Thessalonians 4:3; Hebrews13:4). God is not pleased. We are racist and we hate ...

I know that there are some things that should stay private, but my desire is for you to see Christ in my life. I am a work in progress and  I want for you to be in the car with me as I travel along life’s highways. My desire is for my life to be used for Gods glory. There are a lot of things about myself that I pray God will never ask me to revel, but if my past will heal hearts, then so be it. I found myself ashamed about my last blog. It was very personal and I wanted to take it down. I spend a lot of time afraid of judgment, but I pray that people saw how God has moved in my life and on my behalf even in times when I did not deserve it. I have so many stories about things that could have happened to me, but God stopped it. I’m here to share Jesus and I pray that you guys get the courage that you need in order to do the same <3 My challenge for this week: I pray that you guys will join me in this! Write a letter to my past Write a letter to my future Be hon...

I  remember sitting on the bus in middle school and this guy who was older than me told someone that when I started having sex I wouldn’t be able to stop. I was always very quiet, but I thought to myself, how could someone who didn’t know me say such a thing? He was in a sense, speaking over me. I was kinda rebellious as a teen. I lost my virginity at the age of 14 and I had already been on most of the depression medications that were out at that time. I was in love with love and that led to a lot of heart ache. I even left home for a little while when I was 17 because my mother found a pregnancy test in my bathroom. It did not look like I would graduate from college. It did not look like I was a smart young lady. It did not look like I would amount to anything, but God saw different in me. I got saved for the first time when I was16. I did not understand God or how he operated. Even when I was saved? I just knew that I was on my way to hell. During that time, I battled depr...

You are still daddy’s little girl or guy child of God. I’m here to tell you that God loves you and that you are not a mistake. Do not define your heavenly father by man’s standards; when you do, you limit Him. Forget about what that man who you call dad or that woman that you call mom did to you. God has called you to be a sign to the nations as an example of the love that He has. Don’t be surprised, yes I said that He has called you! In all of your mess and in all your bitterness, you are still called. God will give you the words to speak and the strength that you will need for your journey. Do not worry about what “they” say about you, listen to what God says. God says that you are the head and not the tail. God says that you will be above and not beneath. God says that He has plans to prosper and not to harm you, to bring you to an expected end. God says that with Him all things are possible. God says that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. God says that you are his work...

Beautiful girl Wisdom is the key Don’t let the world tell you who you are or who you should be Beautiful girl You’re not defined by the past Shame is not what God called you to manifest Beautiful girl You’re an original A unique work of art You weren’t brought in this world to hurt but to heal hearts Beautiful girl Ask God what he sees He loves you beyond all human understanding   original poem by Janina B.

      You give me your tithes and offering but your heart is far from me. You go to church to show your face but your heart is far from me. You do all these things but where is your heart? God desires pure worship and NOT watered down praise    (Isaiah 1:18-20)   Last night as I was reading the book of Isaiah, the above words are what I received when I got to verses 18-20.   My prayer for you and me today is that we don’t get stuck.   DISCLAMIER: READ ALL OF WHAT IM ABOUT TO WRITE BEFORE YOU JUDGE!!!!!! Don’t get stuck in the motions of church. We all go to church for different reasons. Sometimes   we really do want to be in the presence of God, but we also go just to pay our tithes, to show our face because we have been going and we don’t want people to think that were not saved, or because we are made to go. Ladies and gentlemen there are many more reasons as to why people go to church and it’s sad th...

After the resurrection of Jesus Christ, he made three appearances to His disciples. One of them was at the Sea of Galilee. Simon Peter wanted to go fishing and the other disciples said that they would join him. That night they caught nothing, but upon day break they saw a man standing on the sea shore, but had no idea that it was the Lord. (Is there a situation in your life where God is in the midst but you don’t see him?) Jesus spoke to them concerning how they should catch the fish and that day, they caught such a great number that the net could not be lifted. (Is God giving you instructions on how to succeed and are you listening?) The disciple whom Jesus loved posed an important question about the man at the sea shore. He asked if it was the lord. (Ask yourself this question, in the midst of being unsuccessful and then becoming successful, is it the Lord?) Upon hearing this, Simon Peter jumped into the water and swam to Jesus, the other disciples stayed in the boat and...

Mental exercise, not physical folks! I need for you to do me a favor. I know that you don’t know me like that, but this will help you. Ok, first print out this page. If you can’t print it, look at it on your phone, if you can’t look at it on your phone, try to remember what I’m going to ask you to do. Next, go to the nearest mirror. When you get to the mirror, look at yourself and say THERE IS GREATNESS ON THE INSIDE OF ME! Tell yourself that you are awesome, great, amazing and believe the words that you saying. This my friend, is called speaking over yourself. You are a sleeping giant. You’re sleeping because you’re walking around in distress instead of standing up to your emotions and showing yourself who is boss. Be God led and not led by your emotions. Sometimes you have to tell yourself to shut up. Don’t give in to self-defeat. God says that in the end you win! Psalm 30:5 says that” Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning” (KJV).  Rise and s...

The dude you see in the picture with me is my little brother and I want to share him with you. He is the joy of my life and a welcomed blessing. It has taken me a while to appreciate the connection that I have with him, but now I got it! We are about 7 years apart and he has down syndrome. I used to say he was down syndrome, but that name does not define him. He is so much more than a so called disability. I am now in a place of helping to care for individuals who have intellectual disabilities. It is not as hard as some may think. They have passions and dreams just like you and I. I challenge some of you to change the way you think about individuals with disabilities. They are just as special, just as intelligent and maybe even more anointed than you! There are times that I have felt like the world was against me, but I had my brother. He has seen tears that no one else has and he has given hugs that no one else could. It took me a long time to appreciate him and I thank G...

Don’t be ashamed of the rout that God is taking you on the way to your destiny. Many of us are in a place that we would prefer to not be in, but remember to have patience in training. What is God trying to teach you? What is God trying to instill in you? What is God trying to up root out of you? Stop looking at the past. You are a new creature in Christ. The desert does not always have to be a dry place; it can be a place of growth. Keep in mind that God does show up in the desert. You may feel alone, but you are alive and breathing right! If you are lacking anything, think about if God wants you to depend solely on him for your needs. Israel had to learn to depend solely on God. He sent them out of Egypt wealthy but there were no stores or market places in the wilderness (God provided them with manna). The wilderness is going to mold and shape you. Allow God to lead you so that you don’t get lost and have to back track. Israel was only 11 days from the promise land but they spent 40...