But Yet You Doubt?

“Jesus saith unto him, Have I been so long time with you, and yet hast thou not known me, Phillip? he that hath seen me hath seen the Father; and how sayest thou then, Show us the Father?” (John 14:9 KJV)

I was hurt and angry to say the least. I asked God to give my family a break, but yet another death occurred. As I have grown older in Jesus, I have learned that it is safer to get closer to Him then farther away. My first instinct was to go see God, my next one was to tell Him how I felt even though I was afraid to say the words because I acknowledge who God is and has been to me.

Recently while I was washing clothes, my heart was grieving and I decided to pick up the Bible. I opened it randomly believing that I would turn to the place where God wanted me to be. I found myself in John 14. I was comforted by the beginning verses and then rebuked by the above verse. Imagine being in a relationship with someone who proves their love to you daily and then when things go wrong, you question their acknowledgement of you. I wanted to be disrespectful, I wanted to revert back to some of the thoughts that God had delivered me from, but grace reminded me of why Jesus came, died, and rose again.

Death is hard whether it’s a family member or a hope, but God is faithful and trustworthy. Consider where you place your hope and your faith. Ask God to show you how to respond and remember everything that He has already done for you. Has He not been with you this long and yet you still don’t believe? Where is your faith, even in anger?

Lord I need your help, I need your peace, and I need your presence. I pray for the hearts of those that are grieving a loss. That loss could be a loved one, a marriage, or a hope, God heal our hearts and bring us closer to you. Help us to hear your voice and to remember that your plans are not to harm us, but to give us patience and hope. In Jesus name, Amen.

Recommended Reading: Jeremiah 29:11

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