Shrinking Is Not an Option

Today I realized that I was afraid of success. I’m afraid of being all that God has called me to be because I am afraid of the accountability that it will intel and I feel undeserving of all that He has for me. I feel like 2019 is a time to grow forward and to excel. It’s like we are knocking on the door of the promises of God after spending so long in a wilderness. The thing about being in a wilderness is that that place is meant to make you a warrior, not a weak-minded victim. You are supposed to learn how to fight and encourage yourself in the wilderness, but some of us have become content with the dryness of the land instead.

Today, I wanted to shrink because so much seems possible for me right now. Things that I have been working for are right in face, but a part of me wants to just shrink because I am comfortable. I became comfortable with fighting and with the thoughts of giving of up. I became friends with being disappointed, but now God is wanting to call forth the flowers to bloom from the seeds that He has planted into so many of us.

God has never stopped encouraging me. He has placed people into my life who have pushed me through love although they did not know the details of my struggles. Today, I realized that I have been a plant that God has been speaking over so that the investment that He has placed into me would not die.

2018 was a hard year, but I want to congratulate you for making it. God has been refining you and allowing the fire of controversy and hardship to sharpen who you are in Him.. Everything that you have endured will be a testimony when people thought that it should have been a funeral for your destiny. Now nothing shall be impossible for you (Matthew 17:20). You kept going even though you were tired. You have had faith although it looked like you should have just given up a long time ago. Your testimony from this day forward shall be that of Psalm 124, If it had not been for the Lord______________; you fill in the rest. This is your year and your season, child of God.

“Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert” (Isaiah 43:19 KJV).

“Then the LORD said to me, “You have seen well, for I am watching over my word to perform it” (Jerimiah 1:12 ESV).

Lord, I pray to celebrate the pain, the hard lessons, and the times that I had to repent. I pray to be thankful for the moments of correction concerning the things that you want to correct in me. I pray to always be teachable, humble, and submissive concerning the paths that you direct me towards. I pray that I will trust you like you never before and that this will be the season that I will understand who you are to me. In Exodus 6:3 you tell Moses that you appeared to His fathers by the name Almighty God, but by the name Jehovah, they did not know you. I pray that I am in tune with your voice and that I will rebuke the voice of the enemy quickly in Jesus name. I pray for wisdom, discernment, and to dwell in your presence. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Recommended Reading:

Psalm 124

Psalm118:17

Notes: Sometimes we seek to know God in the way that our ancestors knew Him, but there comes a time in your life when you have to know God for yourself. You may not see Him the way that their mama or grandmama saw Him. Moses saw I AM. He saw God in a way that Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob did not. I pray to not limit God in my life because He bigger than box that I could attempt to place Him in. I pray that you open your heart to the way that God wants to appear to you. I pray that you will open your heart and your ears to His voice. I pray for your freedom. I don’t know what you are dealing with, where you come from, or what you believe, but God loves you. I pray that you will allow His presence to saturate your dwelling place. Believe in miracles, signs, and wonders. There is nothing impossible for God (Luke 1:37)

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