2018
is not over just yet, but so far it has been a year full of heartache, challenges,
growth, and blessings. The heartache came from the passing of my little brother
exactly 1 month ago. It was a surprise and my heart breaks because he is no
longer here, but my comfort is in Jesus. I know that he is in heaven happy,
smiling, pain free, and worshiping at the feet of Jesus. I still cry and I
still miss him, but I know that God is in total control. God knows what He is doing
at all times and I am learning to respect His will in this situation.
Aside
from the pain of losing my brother, God has been growing me up in ways that I
am learning to be comfortably uncomfortable with. God can use any situation to
position us in Him. Some of those situations involve challenges, but those challenges
are meant to evolve us, not destroy us. I am a person who hates conflict, but I
have had so much of it as I get closer to reaching the personal goals that I
have set for myself. I have had to do many heart checks and I have had to allow
hardship to show me the truth about who I really am. Sometimes we get in a
place where we like to think that we are
ok, but God wants for us to be perfect as He is perfect.
We
need people to come against us. We need hardships and challenges to come our
way because in those times, we will see how our flesh really responds. In
situations that involve conflict, we see the words that we really want to use and
we see the eye rolls that we really want to give people. The responses that I
have just mentioned is what God is after. He desires to position us in Him, but
that old nature has to die first.
God
wants for us to be the walking, talking, and breathing manifestation of His
word. He wants to be able to be seen through us no matter who upsets us. God
wants to be the response to our hardest situations, but we have to know what it
is that is in us that is blocking Him from being that. Look at everything that
you have been through and lay it at the feet of Jesus. It does not matter if
the situation was good or bad; give it to Jesus and allow Him to oversee what
you have been so protective of.
Some
people are protective of their heart. They guard it although it is eating away
at them. They check on it, nurse it from time to time, and re-bandage its brokenness,
but they also refuse to show it to anyone else out of the fear that they will
be hurt all over again.
As
2018 comes to a close, begin the process of deciding that nothing will hold you
back from your destiny. Allow 2019 to be the year that you allow God to move
you onward and upward. God wants to place you on a spiritual launching pad, but
are you willing to be made whole? Are you willing to take God at His word and
receive that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion?
Today,
decide who you will serve. Will you keep serving hurt, pain, defeat, and low
self esteem or will you decide to grab hold of the blessings that God wants to
give you. There comes a time in your life when you have to become personal with
God. Who is God to you? How has He saved you, delivered you, and kept you?
Where has God brought you from? What has He spoken over you?
Know
without a shadow of a doubt that God wants to be in your life so that He can
transform it and you. Jesus loves you very much. Let’s move onward and
upward in Jesus name.
Lord,
as 2018 comes to a close, thank you for being so faithful to me. Thank you for
protecting me. Thank you for loving me and thank you for growing me up. Lord, I
pray that the plans that you have for my life will over shadow my emotions.
Lord, help me to love as you love and help me to see as you see. Help me to
look past my inadequacies in order to see and submit to your prefect will. God,
I don’t understand everything that has happened over the last year, but I know
that you are perfect in all of your ways. Give me a clean heart and your peace which
surpasses all understanding. In Jesus name, Amen.
Recommended Reading: “ Trust in the
Lord with all of your hurt and lean not on your own understanding; In all your
ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight” (Proverbs 3:5-6).
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