Preparation in Waiting

One thing that I have learned about God over the years is that his plan for my life is so much greater than my own. I have also learned that his vision can be more than I can bear at times because I have a tendency to try to make the parts that he has revealed to me come to pass on my own. I ask God why and when, but the truth is that I am not ready. My faith has to grow and I’m still being prepped. It’s easy to feel like a failure when you’re trying to meet the expectation of others. I come from a family of all stars. I was expected to go to college. I expected myself to have what they have and to live how they live, but God…… God is expecting something different from me. He is expecting me to do and to move how he tells me to. This is hard…I have people expecting success from me. God is expecting success from me to. He is expecting me to listen and to wait. Waiting is hard. Jesus waited. At 12 Jesus was wise, but he had to wait. People expected things from Him also. They expected Him to be the carpenter’s son. God expected Him to be His son the Messiah. What do you want more? To meet the expectation of people or to be what and who ever God has called you to be? A destiny fulfilled requires waiting. Jesus had to wait until He was 30. It’s easy to feel the pressure of seeing others around you succeed while you’re in waiting. Jesus was called to ministry, He had the gift, but He had to wait for the appointed time and people to fulfill the assignment. At 12, Jesus might not have been fully equipped to hang on a cross, his young body could not handle the pressure of that aspect of the call. Are you really ready to take on the fullness of the vision?

I pray that we are patient with the process of God. I pray that we begin to enjoy where we are on the way to where we are going. There are lessons on this journey that we cannot afford to miss. Lord I pray for guidance and over flowing grace as we listen to and for YOUR voice and move when YOU tell us to move. Lord I pray that we learn to get out of your way so that your glory can be shown in its fullness, In Jesus name <3

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